It has taken forever but I am finally posting another blog. I am losing it and I have to get my trials and tribulations out of my system so I can move ahead and so maybe others will know they are not alone. Believe me you are not alone as there are always many others going through the same changes and challenges that you are. I know this is true but sometimes this knowledge doesn't give me much comfort. The last few years have been one tribulation after another for me. My whole life as I knew it was pulled out from under me early in the morning of August 18, 2005. I was awakened in the very early morning by the ringing of the telephone to hear my then sixteen year old daughter's hysterical voice telling me that my husband (her father) was dead. My husband and two children had gone on a vacation out east to visit my husband Bob's relatives and friends. My husband had been killed as a passenger in the car owned by his best friend after a rare night of drinking. His friend Tom drove them both off the road and into a tree. Bob was killed instantly and Tom walked away from the accident with a few stitches. In just a second everything you know and love can be ripped from you forever. Needless to say a combination of shock, disbelief, and panic set in. All I knew was that I had to get to my kids as quickly as possible. After my neighbors and good friends Les and Phyllis gave me some money to travel with, I got a ride to the airport and found someone to take care of my pets. Before I knew it I found myself on a plane to Boston. That was the most unpleasant plane ride I have ever endured with a myriad of emotions rushing over and through me. I need a break because this is still very emotional for me to talk about so I will continue with more of my tale of woe tomorrow.