The next while is pretty much a blur. I remember riding to Vermont with 2 of my step kids and throwing my arms around my kids when I got to the motel in Vermont. There was crying and more crying. Mourning is an overwhelming and all consuming process. We had to wait for Bob's body to come back from an autopsy in Burlington and then we went to see it at the mortuary. I think it took seeing him to really believe he was gone. That was pretty much the most heart crushing moment of my life and believe me I have had some tough moments in my day.
The pain my children and step children were in was just as hard to bare. My heart was ripped apart knowing I couldn't fix everyhting for them. My brother flew in and came to be there for me. I will always be grateful to him for coming there for us. I am not sure I could otherwise have dealt with all that we had to go through. There was so much to do. Calls had to be made to Bob's work places back home and friends to tell the devastating news. Then there was Bob's family to deal with. His two sister's(one of which I can't stand) and his brother. They wanted to have a funeral in Vermont with a viewing and everything. I wanted to cremate him and bring him back to Colorado for a service. I let them do a service minus the viewing as I had Bob cremated by then and let myself be talked into leaving part of his ashes in Vermont where they put them in the ground with his parents and their dog Murphy. This all came back to haunt me as his sister then wanted me to pay for all the expenses for their funeral which I would not do. I wish I had kept all his ashes together now and regret that part of him is with his parent's dog. It just doesn't seem right somehow. Needless to say, I was extremely vulnerable at the time and was just trying to keep things as pleasant as possible under the circumstances.
My advice to anyone is to think these thins through and discuss them with your spouse so you both know what the other wants in the event of an untimely death. It is a given that one family member or another will cause problems both unexpected and unwarranted.
Next, it was time to deal with Tom Spencer to try to understand how all this could have happened. I give my respect and admiration to his wife as she came to Bob's funeral and talked to me and the kids afterward. That had to be one of the hardest things she has ever done. I thank her for that. We went to see Tom at his house where he cried and kept saying he was sorry. it is funny that we have never heard one thing from him since. We all feel hurt and confused that Tom could profess that Bob was his best friend and how sorry he was that this all happened yet not even try once to check on the kids or try to help in some small way. We heard he was upset he had to pay for a lawyer and to get his totaled car out of impound.
Needless to say we got out of Vermont as quickly as possible and I personally do not care to go back there ever.
The pain my children and step children were in was just as hard to bare. My heart was ripped apart knowing I couldn't fix everyhting for them. My brother flew in and came to be there for me. I will always be grateful to him for coming there for us. I am not sure I could otherwise have dealt with all that we had to go through. There was so much to do. Calls had to be made to Bob's work places back home and friends to tell the devastating news. Then there was Bob's family to deal with. His two sister's(one of which I can't stand) and his brother. They wanted to have a funeral in Vermont with a viewing and everything. I wanted to cremate him and bring him back to Colorado for a service. I let them do a service minus the viewing as I had Bob cremated by then and let myself be talked into leaving part of his ashes in Vermont where they put them in the ground with his parents and their dog Murphy. This all came back to haunt me as his sister then wanted me to pay for all the expenses for their funeral which I would not do. I wish I had kept all his ashes together now and regret that part of him is with his parent's dog. It just doesn't seem right somehow. Needless to say, I was extremely vulnerable at the time and was just trying to keep things as pleasant as possible under the circumstances.
My advice to anyone is to think these thins through and discuss them with your spouse so you both know what the other wants in the event of an untimely death. It is a given that one family member or another will cause problems both unexpected and unwarranted.
Next, it was time to deal with Tom Spencer to try to understand how all this could have happened. I give my respect and admiration to his wife as she came to Bob's funeral and talked to me and the kids afterward. That had to be one of the hardest things she has ever done. I thank her for that. We went to see Tom at his house where he cried and kept saying he was sorry. it is funny that we have never heard one thing from him since. We all feel hurt and confused that Tom could profess that Bob was his best friend and how sorry he was that this all happened yet not even try once to check on the kids or try to help in some small way. We heard he was upset he had to pay for a lawyer and to get his totaled car out of impound.
Needless to say we got out of Vermont as quickly as possible and I personally do not care to go back there ever.
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